It's now Monday, and I can say that this is a full fledge most Gloomy Monday.
Okay, maybe not because it's Monday, but still..
All in all, it's not that I'm not trying. it's just that when I try, the results I see is so disappointing and cry-worthy. Sometimes all I want to do is just like "Fuck it, fuck all of it." But life cannot just go that way ya know?
So now, all I can do is just sit back, and just see what will happen before I can think about the next step. Because if I really put in my effort, ALL my effort for that one day and help out. I think I deserve some acknowledgment. Even if I don't have, there is no need to thank every freaking person but not me. THAT! THAT IS BLOODY INSULTING.
I really want to keep trying, because you know.. part of it is my fault. But still, when I'm trying but yet the response I see is that, and I will go home with such bad mood. Then why should I keep continuing? At LEAST try to be abit more friendly please! Geesh.